I stumbled into a blog that I started earlier this year. It's really dark. I can't quite remember what state of mind I was in back then. I think I'm better, now, but I'm not sure. It's scary. One day, I'm alright, and the next day, I might be in pieces. My posts from that blog kept talking about how...I was going to get better, and how I'm a terrible person.
It saddens me how sad I was back then. Slowly but surely, I pick up the pieces and try to build something stronger, something that will not waver or break as easily. I must be made of titanium.
When I started today, my mind was set on rejecting an internship offer that I had received. The job scope wasn't exactly what I was looking for, and to me, if I was to take a break from school, it should be for a good reason. I aced the interview, and I think I clicked with my potential boss and coworker. But because it wasn't what I really wanted, I did not intend to accept it...until I found out about the pay. It is...significantly higher than what most interns get. I stopped thinking so much, and I accepted the offer.
So that's how my life is going to be like, from January to the end of April. It's exciting, and scary, but that's just how life is. At the very least, I'll be accumulating capital, which I can use to do some cool things. Before that, there'll be my India trip. All, totally new and exciting things. I'm hoping that this will help me improve as a person, but then again, I might be chasing illusions once again.
I'll leave this post here. It was nice talking to you once again, stranger.
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